Oh my Gods! An Update!
I'm not back for good, as my energy at the moment is very eratic. I have tried to sit down at the computer and come up with a new manipulation, but nothing comes. I've even started drawing with Derwent pencils, drawing images and places from my Meditation world.
I think meditation class is the one thing that I'm keeping up with. I'm still studying herbs, but I have written down everything I can find in my books without having to write out word for word Scott Cunningham's encyclopedia on herbs and their properties! I've thought about putting more photos onto my stock account, my energy just hasn't wanted to be directed into that area! I am a TRUE Indigo Child!
So much has happened since I last updated this. And it is time for an update!
The girl everyone in RL has known as 'Cara' is dead. She finally got her wish, and died. Years upon years of struggling with depression, she no longer has to worry about keeping this body awake to fulfill its purpose on this planet. Confused?! I've had a very significant rebirth. Traces of her remain, especially when I'm tired, but for the most part I am grounded, protected, and nothing phases me. IT'S FANTASTIC!! haha I've even been acknowledging things that make me depressed, and illiminating from them my life. Sadly, this means I can no longer listen to Placebo...
OH MY GODS! I saw the Anti-Christ last Friday night in Melbourne! It makes me glad I believe in multiple deities, as Marilyn Manson is a GOD! I take back every mean thing I've said about him, he still knows how to rock! Although his last album isn't his best...and he is dating a slag half his age...but he flashed his arse! Oh yeah, I'm all about the arse jokes! One poor girl, I saw her stumble past me during the concert...she ended up collapsing and had to be escorted to the hospital on a stretcher with an oxygen mask over her. I was gonna complain about being pushed before I realised it was the paramedics taking her out.
That night, I really should've listened to my intuition. There was space infront of us, and something told me that my friend and i had to move forward...but my friend didn't want to. If we had moved forward, we would've received an invite to the concert after party. We wouldn't've gone as our feet were becoming fucked, but it could've been framed! Instead these two little trendies got it...PLAH! But my sexy boots that I wore there was so comfortable! You could even tell the subcultures through their shoes...that said, I've never seen so many pairs of jeans and accompaning converse shoes in one place...sigh...EMO'S!!
This one girl was looking at me as my friend and I were sitting throughout the duration of The Spazzy's (whoever decided The Spazzy's should open for Manson seriously needs to be shot) and when I took my ventalin (asthmatic) OH MY GODS! The look she gave me! But that's OK, because I wasn't the one in the Emily the Strange skirt TRYING TO BE SOMEONE I WASN'T, BITCH!
But yeah...good night!
There's a New Age fair on at Geelong West Town Hall this weekend, which I'm really excited about. I'll be able to hunt out new places to go for meditation class. I appreciate everything the woman I'm seeing has done for me over the years, but I'm fed up with her suggesting that because I'm Wiccan I am "dabbling" with dark and evil forces. She even said that unless "[I] allow Jesus and Heaven to help [me I] will never be happy." OH MY GODS, AND SHE WAS SERIOUS! She's supposed to be a Spiritualist, who's open to everything. Oh honey, you're Christian through and through! And I wont stop "playing Witch" as she put it as I'm not playing ANYTHING! Reconnecting with my Wiccan faith is most definitly the main source of my rebirth and my soul finally being happy. But that's OK, because my best friend and I will be setting up our own business in a few years AND WE'LL BE RIVALING YOU! HA!
I shouldn't be nasty...I guess it's just pent up frustration I haven't released into my BoS yet! haha This Tuesday will be the last time I go to meditation class with the Christian Spiritualist...because I paid in advance...! It's like a scene from
Mean Girls "I should cancel the Spring Fling on your girls, but I can't...as we've already paid the DJ"!!! Ahhh the days before Lindsy Lohan decided to truely fuck up her life, all before she became legal!
Oh my Gods...it's only 10.30...
MUSIC IS THE WEAPON OF THE FUTURE.~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
My Manipulations</b>
My Stock Account</b>
My Black Parade Video</b>
myspacetv.com/index.cfm?fuseac…Directed by David McCabe
www.myspace.com/homeofdavid, MCR model by Me
Stills of the video and Behind The Scenes can be found in my gallery.Friends